Life is not all sunshine and roses.

I’m back!
In my last post, I talked about what Winter brought to me—reflecting on a Winter full of pretty unforgettable moments. As with all things, not everything is sunshine and roses. There are some tough times in there too. Tough times are when we have to dig down and find out what we are made of. To listen to our inner voice and decide if we will listen to the negative or pull ourselves up and find the positive.

There’s a reason for each season!

When tough times hit, it seems like the whole world around you is falling apart. You’ve been there, the car breaks down, the kids get sick, and your pants suddenly don’t fit anymore! It can be challenging. Just as the season’s transition from one to another, so do we. There is a reason for each season.
When we face adversity, that is the time we learn. We learn to deal with a situation in a new way. We learn to communicate how we feel differently than before—choosing to rise above the lesson and take what we have learned and put it into our everyday use. Believing that we are building a foundation on which we can stand and face anything new coming our way.

Growing beyond our wildest dreams

When we stand up and take that step ahead, we grow beyond our wildest dreams. So, whatever it is that knocked you down or caused you grief when you are ready to shift out of it, know that you have done the work and have the foundation to move forward.

This Spring, I have had a lot of childhood trauma from our car accident come forward. I have remembered things from 37 years ago that I didn’t recall before. It was a crazy time, not only for my Dad and me as we lost my mom and brother but for everyone we knew. It can be overwhelming when this type of emotion creeps up after being hidden for so long. I do know that it came up for a reason. I am in a place in my life where I know how to process it and heal from it.

Over the past 37 years, I have had many ups and downs with the emotions of the accident. I was good at running from them and pushing them back where I thought they belonged, way down deep. Well, they can only stay there for so long. For me, it was time to let them go.

I’m all in!

I have been working the last few weeks to let the emotions come up when needed. Crying when I needed it and allowed myself to feel a little better each time. I’m not sure it will ever disappear for me. Probably not, as it is part of who I am. I realize now that I am so much more than that one night. I am so much more than the girl who ran from as many of those feelings as possible. I am grateful for that time in my life because it got me to where I am today. If I can go farther by releasing more of these emotions, I am all in.

I have been able to experience life in many different ways. Most people who meet me wouldn’t even know that I had such trauma as a kid. So, to understand how far I have come while holding on to all that emotion makes me excited to see where I will go with this newfound feeling of freedom! My growth game is strong, and I’m ready for more.

Thanks for stopping by and taking the time to read A-Step-Ahead. I appreciate it.